Stuck Like Glue

That stupid country song has been stuck in my head. I hope it is now stuck in yours.

Too many books, songs, and movies anymore are so blah and plain and unoriginal. I want to write something different. I want to write something people will WANT to read, something with substance and real thought... It's easier said than done.

Up until my laptop charger broke a week ago, I'd been writing lame, fluffy stuff on my computer just to keep the creative juices flowing. I have yet to find something I sincerely WANT to write about. I don't want to be inane or redundant. I used to be able to write stuff that made people go, Holy crap...! I want that back.

Sigh.

It would seem that I have lost my mojo.

Though I have come to the realization that writers - at least the dramatic ones - are bloodsucking vampires that leech all of the dramatic... goodness from every day events. It's like your mind never stops churning. You mentally narrate your day, if only for the satisfaction of saying you wrote something - anything - even if only in your head. Every person, every thing, every event that would make a good story is catalogued for later reference.

Sometimes it feels like it should suck the enjoyment out of life, but I think it makes it rather interesting.

Sometimes I sit and watch people and the way they react to certain conversations and/or environmental changes. Psychology is one of my other fascinations, in case you were wondering. I think I want to write something dark and twisty and psychological, but I lack a solid idea and sincere motivation.

Well. There I go again, off rambling on some random tangent.

Geez.

I'm done for tonight... Done.

Random....

Can I first of all say that our court system is seriously messed up and backwards?

That said, I got out of two undeserved traffic tickets this week alone! Yes you can believe I was praying hard, even if it seems like a stupid, insignificant thing to pray for. But this year has been a mess for a family, and I can't take another fine or more points.

My husband was in the hospital, I had two miscarriages within the space of six months, my daughter was in the hospital with pneumonia... and still I'm kickin :) Ain't kickin very high, but I'm still kickin.

And I still need to write more. I'm so lazy, and I need to cut it out because... well. I'm a writer. It's like the air I breathe. I don't care how cheesy that sounds. It's true. I feel kinda lame and empty when I don't write.

Well here I go going off on random tangents. And all I wanted to do was update. Aahhhh welllll.

:)

A Year!

WOW!

It's been almost a year since I posted!!

That's just ridiculous.

Okay, so we're going to have to work on this. I need to get back into the swing of writing. I miss writing.

So I've fallen off the earth, but it's okay, I'm climbing back up.

And I'm also bound and determined to drop 15 pounds (the rest of the baby weight - yeah from TWO YEARS ago).

And get back to personal study. I've been so irregular; I know, I suck at life.

And get better at field service.

And get better at life - stop sucking at it!!

Haha.

Well, my lunch break is almost over.

I'll spit more pointless drivel later.

TTFN :) (eh oh el)